Category: Anxiety/Depression

Depression isn’t the saddest person in the room. Quite contrary actually, depression sometimes is the person you would have never expected. Along with trying to convince you they’re happy, they’re trying to convince themselves. Depression isn’t that melancholy person, you don’t want to be around. Oftentimes, it’s the person everyone loves because of the light […]

I’m crying. Again. Since being hit with an intractable depression two years ago, it seems that’s all I do. Cry. It’s morning and I am up earlier than usual. As I sit at the kitchen table with a cup of hot coffee, pink streaks of morning light begin cutting through the darkened, morning sky. When I hear […]

Anxiety is difficult on a few levels for the individual who has the disorder, but when it’s your partner, it can be challenging to help them get back to being themselves after having a panic attack. It’s scary, it’s confusing and to some people it can feel incredibly isolating. Let me iterate here that it […]

1. I’m unmotivated to finish things. The misconception about depression is that it always involves a lot of crying and empty tissue boxes. For me, depression feels like an absence of emotions. It’s a terrible muted feeling, like my insides have been scooped out and I’ve got to fake it somehow. This emptiness makes it hard to […]

I’m not doing so well, today. This is one of the days where I won’t be sharing what a great day I had, or how I kicked depression‘s butt, or rave about how productive I was. Aside from making sure my kids have what they need, I’ve been in bed all day. And today, I don’t […]

There are certain familiar symptoms of depression we often hear about, such as sadness, oversleeping or isolation. There are other symptoms though, that aren’t as out in the open, and I struggle with one of them. I have difficulty feeding myself adequately. I struggle to get enough calories, nutrients and variety. While these may seem like the […]

Why can’t you just relax? Why do you always have to take things the wrong way? Why do you let things bother you? What’s the big deal? I am not sure about you, but people toss those questions at me as if they were confetti. Almost as if they truly believe I can control what […]

“I owe you an apology…” I said. He asked “Why?” while laughing. And as my fingers began to type and I tried to explain everything that been going through my head in the past 48 hours, I realized how ridiculous I sounded. But the truth was it might have been ridiculous, but they were still […]

Today I got in the car after a horrendous day and all I could do was cry. My best friend is giving me the silent treatment and my softball coach won’t play me. Minor things, I know, but in my head, it all felt like too much. It felt like the whole world was crumbling […]