Your pillows had a hard time last night. Your eyes carry the burden you’re hiding from the inside. He made you feel special, loved and treasured. Then one day, he made you feel dumped and hated. The same cycle continues. The same pain won’t go away. Day by day, he is slowly killing the remaining happiness within you. He keeps on bringing catastrophe which swallows you whole. He destroys you.
You don’t deserve to be in his maze. You don’t deserve to play his games. Staying with him means purging you through his endless labyrinth. You deserve someone who will walk with you on the rocky roads. You deserve a man who will get you out of trouble, not putting you in it.
You don’t deserve his mixed signals. You don’t deserve a love that confuses you. You deserve constant reassurance, not his mind-boggling riddles. You deserve a “Yes, I can.” in this world full of “I’m not sure, maybe later.” You deserve to see rays of hope from your chosen person. You don’t deserve an answer that cannot look you straight in the eye. You don’t deserve his countless cheatings. You don’t deserve all his lies. You deserve someone who will treat you right, all the way.
You don’t deserve to be his backup plan. You deserve to be the priority, the only one. You don’t deserve someone who’s just including you on his list. You are not an option. You don’t deserve a man who leaves you during rough times and comes back anytime he wants. You deserve a love that always stays. You should not allow someone to leave you hanging while taking another adventure. Honestly, you are the best spot. You don’t deserve someone who keeps on wasting the gold in you.
You don’t deserve to be his comfort zone. You are not supposed to be his favorite item on the menu. You are the main star. You hold the leading role. He holds the universe in his hands but he lets it slip away. You deserve someone who will be your sunshine. You don’t deserve a man who keeps on dragging you into darkness. You deserve someone who will lift you up. Someone who will be your safe haven. Someone who will keep you steady.
You don’t deserve to be his one-call-away girl. You don’t deserve to be his weekends or rest days. You deserve to be his every day. You deserve someone who will be your home. You are meant to feel great by being loved by the right person. You deserve a man who will cherish every moment with you. You are not too much for the one who truly loves you. You are always enough.
You don’t deserve to be taken for granted. You deserve a love that appreciates every ripple in you. You deserve a love that is worth fighting for. You deserve a man who will take care of you, at all times. You deserve someone who will take the risks for you, at all odds. You don’t deserve a man who will leave you alone. You don’t deserve someone who keeps you lonely. Having you is grand and you deserve to feel that way.
You have the right to remove yourself in the situation that lets you down. You need to free yourself from all the bruises he’s causing. You deserve to be loved with consistency.
You deserve to be genuinely happy.
By Anne Jeneth Lopez for ThoughtCatalog