I May Not Be Easy, But I’m Definitely Worth It

I am always going to be worth it.

Know that I am very caring and kindhearted person. I am always going to have your back and I will be there for you all the time – especially in those moments where you need me the most. I can be all of the things that you need me to be for you, but you also have to remember, I am not going to be an easy person to be with. I’m not always going to be so easy to love. I’m not always going to be able to create a fun and relaxing atmosphere. In fact, sometimes, I’m going to be a real struggle to be with. But there’s one thing that you really have to know, I am always going to be worth it.

They say that I’m really high-maintenance but in reality, I just really think it’s important for me to take care of myself. If you want to take me out, then know that it takes a really long time for me to get ready. But it’s only because I want to look good enough for myself to actually give me the confidence to be the fun and amazing person that you expect to be with. I respect you and myself too much to just allow myself to step out with you looking like a snob.

I’m not always going to be up to go with you on a big adventure every single weekend. I work really hard all week and sometimes, I just want to spend my weekends at home lounging around on the couch watching mind-numbing Netflix shows as my soul and body tries to recover. So although I may not be the most adventurous and exciting person out there, know that I am very chill when I want to be. Know that with me, you have a partner who loves you regardless of where we are and what we’re doing.

Also don’t expect me to be in a good and jolly mood all the time. I won’t be able to show my enthusiasm for whatever it is you have to say 24/7. Know that I have my own problems that I have to deal with in my own space and in my own time. And sometimes, that may mean me overlooking any of your needs and problems as well. I just sometimes need my own space to do my own thing before I can really be okay again and I need you to be okay with that. And know that if you’re the one who is going to need some space in the future, I will always be able to respect that. I will always respect your individuality and any needs you might have to get away from this relationship for a while.

I’m not a particularly outdoorsy person and so I may not have a lot of fun in camping, surfing, or any of those other kinds of activities. But I do know what it means to do something that your partner loves doing. And know that while I’m not going to be a big fan of the things that you’re most fond of, I’m still going to make the effort to meet you halfway. I’m going to be able to compromise for the sake of the relationship and for the sake of us.

I’m not always going to be supportive and positive. You have to know that upfront. If I think that something is a bad idea, I’m not going to lie and tell you that it’s a good idea. If I feel like you’re making a wrong decision, I’m going to tell you about it. I’m not going to blindly support you but you can always be sure that you are always going to hear the truth from me. You can be confident that you are always going to be getting some very valuable perspective from me when you ask for it.

You should also know that my anxiety consumes me a lot and I can be very unhinged from time to time. But you should also know that it’s because of my anxiety that I am able to relate to other peoples’ feelings and emotions better. My anxiety has taught me to see vulnerability and insecurity in other people. So whenever you’re feeling particularly down, I will know how to treat you and be with you. I will know how to cater to you and nurse you back to wellness.

And lastly, I’m a nice person, but I’m not a pushover. I’m not going to let you walk all over me like a mat. I am going to stand my ground when I know that I deserve it. I will always be demanding a hundred percent effort from you because that’s the same kind of effort that I will be giving you and this relationship.

By A for ReRules