You came into my life like a breath of fresh air. Like somehow the universe knew we needed to meet. I fell in love with you faster than anyone I had ever me. To be honest, I’m fairly certain I fell in love with you the first time we kissed.
You once asked me how I knew I was in love with you and that I didn’t just love the idea of you. I wasn’t sure what to say at the time because I was so caught off guard in that moment.
But, I do now…
I know I love you because I have to catch my breath every time I see you. When you get near me my heart skips a beat and I get butterflies like it’s the first time meeting you. I lose myself in our conversations, we get together and it flows so naturally, so effortlessly.
I know I love you because I opened my soul to you. You’ve seen my light and my dark, and you’ve never judged either side. You’re the only one in the world that knows my full truth. I trust you with everything that I have, and everything that I am. To this very day you are the only person that knows the full me.
I know I love you because my heart has never felt pain like it did when we stopped being us. It’s like a part of you grew onto it and when we ended, it broke off and now I will never get it back. I could fill a river with the tears I’ve cried for us.
I know I love you enough to let you go.
As much as we have been through, and as much as I love you I know that we will never be us. I’ve seen the future with you, I’ve felt in my body and I’ve felt it being ripped away from me. So now I need to let you go, and with that I also need you to let me go.
You say you love me and if that is true I hope you love me enough to let me go as well. We always seem to find out way back to one another and some might say that’s fate but, it’s not. It’s us testing what could have been but, at some point we have to stop playing with what could have been and start realizing what is. And, the truth is, my heart will always be yours. I’m not sure anyone will ever fill it the way you did. The truth is, I still hold on but, every day I let go just a little more. You always know how to pull me back in and I let you because deep down I don’t want to fully let go. The truth is, I want you to be happy, I love seeing you happy and smiling. I just wish deep down your happiness was with me.
So, I’m saying this.
Please let me go, or bring back the piece of my heart that you broke off.
I can’t stay here waiting forever, it hurts too much to keep holding onto something that keeps breaking my heart. I know I’m in love with you but, the question is, are you in love with me?
And…will that ever be enough?
By Brittany Nicole for ThoughtCatalog