For some reason, the less you think about it, the easier it becomes.
The less you stress about, the more effortlessly it will happen.
It starts with little things, like realizing that a whole day has passed and they didn’t cross your mind because you were more invested in yourself and your emotional wellbeing.
It starts with not caring about whether or not you’ll see them or whether or not they’ll reach out to you.
It starts with realizing that you’re not as invested as you used to be and it doesn’t feel like losing.
It starts with you being okay with not having them in your life anymore.
It starts with you imagining a future without them and it doesn’t make you feel sad.
It starts with you finding joy and comfort with other people who treat you the way you want to be treated.
It starts with your mind, when it slowly stops thinking about them and stops wondering how they’re doing.
It starts with your heart, when it doesn’t skip a beat when they’re around. When it slowly starts closing off because it doesn’t feel safe to proceed. It doesn’t feel safe about moving forward. When it slowly starts feeling better about feeling less.
It starts with you not wanting to send that text message or tell them that you miss them.
It starts with you starting not to miss them the longer you go without seeing them.
It starts with you questioning your own feelings; doubting if you truly ever liked them or if it was all in your head.
It starts with feeling anxious instead of feeling safe.
It starts with wanting to fall back instead of wanting to try harder.
It starts with craving distance more than intimacy.
It starts with being indifferent more than passionate.
It starts with being turned off by the smallest things instead of letting them go.
It starts with remembering every red flag instead of ignoring them.
It starts with a nudge telling you that you’re settling when you know you deserve more.
It starts with asking God for clarity and you find yourself slowly walking away.
It starts with an inkling that they’re not meant to be yours and it ends with a decision that they’re not the one for you.
It starts with a few ‘maybes’ and ends with a clear NO.